It worked!

I am really happy today. Frankly, it's rather frightening and bizarre. And it is definitely interferring with my writing--which is not cool. But I'm just really happy. It feels like a million of my cells deep inside are grinning. That's it. Just grinning. So my insides feel happy, and that kinda throws my brain because there is no reason to feel this happy.

Oh wait, there is. I'm alive, the sun is out, and in general, things are going as they ought. That's a cool thing, but you know, that happens just about every day. Ergo...this is how I'm supposed to feel EVERY day. But I don't.

So why the change? I did a session last night. The frames (things to focus on) were suggested as something everyone should use in every session. So what the heck, I did. Here they are: (Keep in mind that I am the client).

% ego=God (means what percentage of client's mind thinks it is in charge, not the One Field)
% codependance (means what percentage of client is mutually addicted to/with someone else's field)
# of mind identities client is operating through (means what number of mind-generated personnas are limiting my experiences to what fits their perameters)
# of fields client is operating through (this is not the One Field, these are fields of stuff, usually mind generated, that clog up stuff)

Suffice it to say that at the beginning of the session the answers were: A TON! But I did the session and lifted out a lot of interconnectedness with my family, my parents family, and my cousin's family (I'm visiting them right now).

This does not mean that I am no longer part of my family or they a part of me. It means, though, that I can operate alone as me without their influence. I am still a part of the family, but we don't operate as ONE MIND operating in different bodies.

Let me stress that if you asked my family, they would say that Jade is EXTREMELY independant. They have almost zero influence on what I do at all. This is relatively true. But some percentage of my cells were operating THROUGH the filter of the Family Mind. (We call it the Collective Conscience of -blank- which in this case was my Lee family).

Now truthfully, I'm sure I'll have to do this again. Some part of me will probably always group-think with my husband and children, siblings and parents, etc, etc. But for today, parts of me are newly born as JUST ME! And wow, that part is HAPPY! It's thrilled. It's clean of influence that I didn't choose.

And that makes me happy!

My Malignant Mind

There is a concept in energy mirrors that has become a kind of holy grail to me. I can see it, I can sometimes touch it, but I can’t quite wrap my hands around it and own it. It is rooted in the earlier post–We Are All the Whole One Field–and it begins at the very beginning of everything.

At one point, the Whole One Field decided it wanted a relative experience. The One Field was everything, which is awesome. But what did nothing feel like? What about half? What about all the myriad shades of color in between? It wanted to know, and so it carved out a piece of itself and slowed it down. That piece became me. Another piece became you. Other pieces include the grass, the birds, the water, the Earth, and don’t forget all the other worlds and universes beyond our conception. But for the moment, let’s focus on one tiny piece we’ll call HB for Human Being.

HB’s body collects over a million neural inputs a second. That’s a whole bunch of data for just lying in bed breathing. Something had to organize all that data. And that something also needed to make decisions like when to walk, how to talk, and when to eat cheesecake rather than chocolate. Wham, the mind was created.

Now the mind is an awesome creative force. It can manipulate all that fabulous data, come to conclusions, decide on new paths, even choose to access the Whole One Field and experience Everything again. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, it forgot that it wasn’t THE SOURCE. I--the mind--am in charge, it declared, and it was damn well going to stay there.

So, when the mind decides it wants to do energy healing, it cheers itself on. Okay, let’s get specific. MY mind cheered me on. I was going to do all sorts of cool, mystical stuff. Except in order to do any real energy work, I had to access the One Field and STAY THERE. Otherwise, I’m just playing with my imagination, which is way cool, but it isn’t very helpful to the other pieces of the One Field out there who would like my attention. So here I go...

It took me about five years, but I can now quiet my body (depending on how much caffeine I’ve had), quiet my mind (babble, babble, okay, I’m breathing, I’m silent, I’m...), and access the Whole One Field. Easy-peezy. "Yeah!" cheers my mind. "I’m the Whole One Field." Well, I WAS the whole One Field. Now I’m in my mind/body again congratulating myself.

I am the Whole One Field. My breathing lengthens. My body stills. I touch a silent peace. "Yeah, I got to it again! Woo hoo! Now what?" Back in mind/body.

I am the Whole One Field. My headache eases. My back straightens. My breath... "So, what am I doing in the One Field? What’s going on?"

I am the Whole One Field. "Yeah, I got that. So when’s lunch? Am I thin yet? Headache’s coming back, so that obviously didn’t work."

And there you have my malignant mind.