Not so much today...

Well, I did another session last night. It was a follow up to the one that produced such happiness yesterday. It was an incredibly difficult session. I yawned through the whole thing. Kept losing focus. Thinking about dinner, my writing, my mother, etc, etc. That's usually a sign that I'm hitting some Hard Wired Barriers (HWB) and just don't want to change. But I persevered. Or I think I did. Anyway, I spent more time with it until it finally finished. Yeah! I accomplished my task and went to bed.

But today...I don't feel different. I don't feel better. If anything, I feel more...gray. Now I don't think every session should produce results like yesterday, but after the difficult session last night, I fear I did exactly squat. I fear I just banged my head against the HWBs and did nothing. *sigh* I'll try to do better next time. It's all I can do.

I just wish there was an objective place I could go read a meter that said--Congratulations, you accomplished this much. You reorganized your field this much. Or you would have been better served to stare at your toenails for an hour and a half.

What did I do? What did I accomplish? I have no *#&*@# clue.

I think I'll go stare at my toenails now...

It worked!

I am really happy today. Frankly, it's rather frightening and bizarre. And it is definitely interferring with my writing--which is not cool. But I'm just really happy. It feels like a million of my cells deep inside are grinning. That's it. Just grinning. So my insides feel happy, and that kinda throws my brain because there is no reason to feel this happy.

Oh wait, there is. I'm alive, the sun is out, and in general, things are going as they ought. That's a cool thing, but you know, that happens just about every day. Ergo...this is how I'm supposed to feel EVERY day. But I don't.

So why the change? I did a session last night. The frames (things to focus on) were suggested as something everyone should use in every session. So what the heck, I did. Here they are: (Keep in mind that I am the client).

% ego=God (means what percentage of client's mind thinks it is in charge, not the One Field)
% codependance (means what percentage of client is mutually addicted to/with someone else's field)
# of mind identities client is operating through (means what number of mind-generated personnas are limiting my experiences to what fits their perameters)
# of fields client is operating through (this is not the One Field, these are fields of stuff, usually mind generated, that clog up stuff)

Suffice it to say that at the beginning of the session the answers were: A TON! But I did the session and lifted out a lot of interconnectedness with my family, my parents family, and my cousin's family (I'm visiting them right now).

This does not mean that I am no longer part of my family or they a part of me. It means, though, that I can operate alone as me without their influence. I am still a part of the family, but we don't operate as ONE MIND operating in different bodies.

Let me stress that if you asked my family, they would say that Jade is EXTREMELY independant. They have almost zero influence on what I do at all. This is relatively true. But some percentage of my cells were operating THROUGH the filter of the Family Mind. (We call it the Collective Conscience of -blank- which in this case was my Lee family).

Now truthfully, I'm sure I'll have to do this again. Some part of me will probably always group-think with my husband and children, siblings and parents, etc, etc. But for today, parts of me are newly born as JUST ME! And wow, that part is HAPPY! It's thrilled. It's clean of influence that I didn't choose.

And that makes me happy!

My Malignant Mind

There is a concept in energy mirrors that has become a kind of holy grail to me. I can see it, I can sometimes touch it, but I can’t quite wrap my hands around it and own it. It is rooted in the earlier post–We Are All the Whole One Field–and it begins at the very beginning of everything.

At one point, the Whole One Field decided it wanted a relative experience. The One Field was everything, which is awesome. But what did nothing feel like? What about half? What about all the myriad shades of color in between? It wanted to know, and so it carved out a piece of itself and slowed it down. That piece became me. Another piece became you. Other pieces include the grass, the birds, the water, the Earth, and don’t forget all the other worlds and universes beyond our conception. But for the moment, let’s focus on one tiny piece we’ll call HB for Human Being.

HB’s body collects over a million neural inputs a second. That’s a whole bunch of data for just lying in bed breathing. Something had to organize all that data. And that something also needed to make decisions like when to walk, how to talk, and when to eat cheesecake rather than chocolate. Wham, the mind was created.

Now the mind is an awesome creative force. It can manipulate all that fabulous data, come to conclusions, decide on new paths, even choose to access the Whole One Field and experience Everything again. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, it forgot that it wasn’t THE SOURCE. I--the mind--am in charge, it declared, and it was damn well going to stay there.

So, when the mind decides it wants to do energy healing, it cheers itself on. Okay, let’s get specific. MY mind cheered me on. I was going to do all sorts of cool, mystical stuff. Except in order to do any real energy work, I had to access the One Field and STAY THERE. Otherwise, I’m just playing with my imagination, which is way cool, but it isn’t very helpful to the other pieces of the One Field out there who would like my attention. So here I go...

It took me about five years, but I can now quiet my body (depending on how much caffeine I’ve had), quiet my mind (babble, babble, okay, I’m breathing, I’m silent, I’m...), and access the Whole One Field. Easy-peezy. "Yeah!" cheers my mind. "I’m the Whole One Field." Well, I WAS the whole One Field. Now I’m in my mind/body again congratulating myself.

I am the Whole One Field. My breathing lengthens. My body stills. I touch a silent peace. "Yeah, I got to it again! Woo hoo! Now what?" Back in mind/body.

I am the Whole One Field. My headache eases. My back straightens. My breath... "So, what am I doing in the One Field? What’s going on?"

I am the Whole One Field. "Yeah, I got that. So when’s lunch? Am I thin yet? Headache’s coming back, so that obviously didn’t work."

And there you have my malignant mind.

WE ARE ALL THE WHOLE ONE FIELD

Before I begin any energy work, I turn to the following phrase: We are all the whole one Field. At different times, I will capitalize one word or the other. ALL reminds me that everyone--person, animal, thing, air, space, even belly lint--we're all God or The One Field. I try not to use the word God because it's so emotionally charged, so I simply use the One Field (capitalized). It is through the One Field that I am able to touch anyone else. If I stay in the "Me-Jade, You-Belly Lint" mode, then I am in my head and not going to do anything but give myself a headache. We are all one. That's vital to all my work, even (and maybe most especially) my fiction work.

When I all-caps ONE--my focus is on unity. It's a little different from ALL where I consciously try to include individual clients or items. When I caps ONE, I'm thinking of a large ocean of creation from and in which we all live. Kind of like Star War's FORCE or Odo from Star Trek: DS9. Ever see the episode in which he returns to his formless ocean of family members? That's what I imagine when I think of the One Field. Except that the One Field is everywhere, not just hanging out there on a planet like a golden ocean.

See, one of the main things I've discovered is that language is a heavy handed tool, but it's the only one I've got. Shades of language change what we think. So...ALL and ONE...subtle differences, but so important!

So...for the moment, I'm actually capitalizing both: We are ALL the whole ONE Field. Yes, part of me is indeed belly lint, gravel on the side of the road, and yes, even that disgusting spider that I really, really want to stomp on. It's both an awesome and rather unsettling thought.

Vicki Lewis Thompson

In case you missed me yesterday...I was blogging at Barbara Vey's Publisher's Weekly Blog -- Beyond Her Book. it's on the right side after you hit this link: http://www.publishersweekly.com/ But that was yesterday when I posted about the fabulous Celebrate Romance conference I was at.

TODAY'S blog is about IRON DONGS. (yes, you read that right!) And it's at http://www.soapboxqueens.com/ Hop on by there and comment. Someone gets to win a FREE copy of Dragonborn!

ENERGY HEALING

Hello all! I have strongly RESISTED blogging in the past. Why? Frankly, because I would rather be writing my books....or doing something that I have kept a relative secret. Yes, I've been working these past years to become an energy healer.

There, I said it. My dirty secret is out. I've told people about it in the past, but this is in print. Everyone in the world could read this if they like. It's quite a step for me. But for a variety of reasons, I have decided to let the world see my struggles with energy concepts and healing.

One of the primary purposes here is to show what I believe is true. Or rather, my PERCEPTIONS of the truth. Hopefully that will lead to better understanding of what is in my books. All of my writing has some basis in energy, but the concepts are not necessarily correct. Sometimes they are simply a reflection of my understanding at the time. Sometimes I've adjusted the concept to fit the fictional story line. And sometimes, I just make up stuff. It's the sad truth, but I am a fiction writer, after all. That's my job.

But for now, this place will be as truthful as I can make it. And hopefully, it will shine a light on one person's struggle with energy healing concepts.

There you go. That's all my bravery will allow for today. More tomorrow. But if you simply can't wait--visit http://www.energymirrors.com/

Jade

CELEBRATE ROMANCE!!!!

I am just finishing out a fabulous conference -- Celebrate Romance http://www.crspring.com/
Pictures will be forthcoming from people more digitally capable than moi!

More coming in a bit. But for this moment...DRAGONBORN IS OUT!!!
--Jade